I'm going (Not) so slightly mad.

I haven't had a steady job in like 6 or 7 years now. I can't seem to catch a break in any field I have any qualifications in and as I reach beyond middle age the jobs are drying up faster than the fluid in my joints. I have no access to my own money and no real choices in anything John and I do because I don't feel right making demands when I can't pay for anything. For someone who already suffers from depression this sucks a huge big greasy nasty Republican (I can't complain about it sucking dick cause I LIKE to suck dick).
I just have no idea what to do anymore. My lack of enthusiasm has me paralyzed so bad I can't get myself to do the laundry.