Round 2 is up to bat.

John had the College call him (where the radio station is overseen in Phoenix) and instead of doing any more phone interviews they scheduled him to fly out and do a face to face on July 19th. We both see this as a very good thing, I'm so excited for him and for myself.

I'm tenativly looking into Phoenix and the surrounding area for job prospects and possible pagan and gaming groups. I think I'll really be able to start learning more about being "Two Spirit".

The beasts.

I hardly ever post pictures but here are my pets...

This is Ginger... She's a horror and a Lady all at the same time.

Bruno.. My baby and the biggest love of all time.

I'll try to get the cats and Ferrets later today.

It's a small small pagan world.

Last night John and I went to our friends Bob and Karen's party. Every time we go to one of their parties I bump into an old friend that I haven't seen in years so it's always fun for me.
Last night was a doozie though. I met a woman who knows Annabelle and many others I haven't seen in ages and she's giving them my information. I hope that I can re-establish contact as I really miss these people.

On the other hand... These are the same people who betrayed me when I needed my friends the most, do they deserve my love and devotion?

To top the night off one of the partiers who I don't know recognized me from our website! He told me a friend of his was raving about a reading I did for her and had him look me up on the web a while ago. he recognized me from my photo and it was cool and a bit weird at the same time.

Sorry to have been away.

But there hasn't really been anything I wanted to talk about happening in my life.
I'm struggling to use the CPAP machine all night long. nothing I try makes it comfortable for me.

John had his 60th birthday last week and being out of work I couldn't get him anything to celebrate and that made me very depressed.
Right as I type this John is on the phone being interviewed by 5 people at the college he hopes to be working at in Arizona. Oh how i hope he gets the job so we can escape the black hole that Philadelphia has become for us. Not that I expect moving to create a miracle but at least it will shake us up and out of our ruts.

Oh I did start Testosterone shots a few weeks ago and man has it made a difference. Guys as you get older make sure to have Testosterone tests done so you can avoid the health problems I have had from low testosterone.

Update: John did well on his first of 3 or 4 interviews. He was told that will make a decision in about 3 weeks.

CPAP. My new sleeping companion and tormentor.

I finally received my CPAP on Monday and it's been an experience. Monday night I wore it to bed and woke up with the mask placed nicely on the unit so I can only suppose that I must have taken it off at some point as it wouldn't have fallen off onto the unit itself.
Ginger hated it at first and got barky for a while and even now gives it the "evil eye".
Last night I slept for about 3 hours with it on and woke up exhausted and in a pool of sweat. I can only think it's because I breath heavier with the mask on  and my body reacted like I was running a marathon. I decided to keep it off the rest of the night as I was feeling a bit too drained to go through that again.

So far however I haven't taken a nap yet so it must be working but I am getting tired now so I'm signing off and laying down with the unit on in case I fall asleep.

To sleep, perchance to rest... that is the question.

I've known I had sleep apnea for many years. but it's gotten really bad in the last year or so and I figured it was time to have a sleep study done. I had one on Easter Sunday night and it was awful. I couldn't sleep between all the wires attached to me and the ultra soft bed making my back ache.

They were able to get me to sleep for about 2 hours and had enough information to tell I stop breathing 90 TIMES IN A HOUR. I don't even get a full minute of sleep before choking. They will be setting me up with a CPAP machine and hopefully I'll be able to get some actual rest like I haven't had in years.

Happy 17th Anniversary John!

Today is John's and my 17th anniversary. Goddess it's been a long strange trip and I wouldn't change much, mostly just my own crap, John is about as perfect as he can be.
I'm posting this song because this is what he is in my life. He's always there for me no matter what I do or how stupid I can be. I think I'll light a candle today for all the lovers in the world and all those seeking love so that they might find one another.

All my Love and Lightning,
Grimm