I am insomnia's bitch.

I sleep in 2 hour spats. I may get as much a 4 hours at a time but that's rare, this has led me to get a bit narcoleptic. When John and I are driving (He's always at the wheel) I tend to drift off and I sometimes drift off watching TV. Last night I dozed off at 9pm and woke up at 1:30am I now have watched two good movies on www.hulu.com (My favorite website) One called 'Crying with Laughter' and one called "Night of the Living Dorks' extreme opposites on the entertainment spectrum and well worth the watch.

I'm hoping to get back to sleep eventually i hope it's while I walk the dogs. Sleep exercise sounds like a great idea.

Waking to a brand new day.

Good morning everyone!
I'm so sorry to have taken time from this blog. I've no real excuse other than I just was feeling like crap and wanted to be invisible for a while.

Onward and upward as today may be a really good day. John has a job interview (in house with the company he already works for) for a Chief Engineer's position in the Newark NJ area. If he gets it there will be a move to a new home one with a kitchen! I'll actually be able to cook and maybe get rid of all this weight I've put on in the past decade, also we would be in an area that is far enough away from Philly that I may be able to get a Medical Assistant job.

I'll be letting you all know how things go.

Love and Lightning,
Grimm

Thanks Mom!

My mother Janet Leven died over 20 years ago. Every once in a while she comes to me in dreams just to reassure me that she's doing OK. This morning I was dreaming about cleaning out RV/trailer type things when she came to me and said "Everything is going to be fine." I didn't give it too much thought as the date of her death is the 30th of this month and that's the usual time she comes to me.

This afternoon my sister Jeanie called and told me that our sister Cathy was in the hospital and had had a heart attack. I started to panic until I remembered Mom's words from this morning. So Thanks Mom, I trust Cathy will be fine.

I am everything you hate.

I am everything you hate.

Dear “Conservative Christians”, Bible thumping mad people and all others who fear and hate gay people,

My name is Joe Leven and it appears you hate me and want to see me either dead or imprisoned for whom and what I am. Yes I’m homosexual. I live with another man whom I love and cherish more than the air I breathe.

But that is nothing to fear. Honestly there is far more to me than that because I stand for all the things you fear.

I stand for Truth

I stand for Justice

I stand for Peace

I stand for Tolerance

I stand for Love in all its forms

I stand for understanding and the end to slavish dogma.

I stand for thinking for myself and not blind obedience to others.

I stand for Progress, not just for myself but for all mankind no matter who they are or                                   how they might differ from me.

I stand for everyone who is oppressed

I stand for the planet because we have used her to the point of near destruction

I stand for you, because I wish you to heal from your wounded souls and join us in the light.

You see? There you have it. The real reason my people are so hated by you is because we want you to be as happy as we are living in a world that is a living tribute to creation and not the bleak antiseptic hell you are trying to create for us all.

So the real reason you hate me is because I’m actually following in Jesus’ path and I’m not even Christian.

In all love,

Joe

Good news! I have partial employment!

I started a part time job at Danny's, Adam & Eve in Philly.
I work Monday and Tuesday mornings Midnight to 8AM and Saturdays 8 AM to 4PM.
It's a porn store and I kind of love working there so far. The money sucks but the place is mainly dead so there is very little in the way of distractions from reading.
I'll try to tell you all the fun and juicy tales when they happen.

Why I hate the holidays.

The reason is all the cookies and cakes and other goodies people give us. I have a bad sweet tooth and we have no real pantry or such to keep food safe from bugs and such so I tend to eat whatever is available. I know it's a sad excuse but John tends to hoard things and they go bad.
Well I tell John that if he wants some of what's here he should take it upstairs to his computer room where I never go so I won't eat it. He brought home a bunch of cookies and left them on my bed so I assumed they were mine to eat, 4 days later after I have eaten most of it he asks where it all is and I said i thought it was mine to eat and he gets all pissed off.
I tell him  EVERY SINGLE TIME that if he wants some to take it out of my room but he didn't and now he's pissed at me.

2| Jethro Tull - Ring Out Solstice Bells (TOTP 9-12-1976)

A Blessed Yule and Winter Solstice to all I love. With the reawakening of the sun may we all prosper and evolve into our next wondrous stage of being.
The light has never left us but some times needs to remind us that we have strength that we can only see when we are in the dark.

Love and Lightning,

Joe