What's up with the bear right now.

I decided recently that I'm needing to change my life if I'm ever going to survive my health conditions. My Congestive Heath Failure has been acting up for weeks now making it just a bit harder to breath and sapping me of what little endurance I have. The reason it's acting up is I have nothing to do but sit on my ass all day and surf the web or play games. So i'm making changes starting with getting out of the house more. to do that I'm picking up some of my wants and desires that I have not allowed myself to explore with any gusto.
One is the fact that I'm a nudist but have not been to any nude events in ages. So over the weekend i met up with the Philadelphia Radical faeries ( a gay men's social/pagan group) and went naked with them for a while. and that just spurred me on so I joined www.truenudists.com and I'm meeting some really wonderful people there. Now don't worry i'm not going to be flashing my flesh on this site so you can all open your eyes now you bitches. This will get me out of the house and active with people doing something fun and different. 
it's also something I can do anywhere should we get the position in Phoenix. 


I'm also looking into learning more Native American medicine. While I'm not genetically an Indian I have a deep draw to their ways and cultures. Being Two-spirit as they call gay people, i'm very drawn to that particular magic and want to understand it better so I may be of use to my community as I have always know I would be.

Update on Harry's customer.

This is what I wrote to him:

Hi XXXXXXX,

I’m fine thanks for asking.

I cannot in good conscience help you ruin your life by casting that type of spell. Full on Manipulation via magic has always backfired on the caster typically destroying everything good in their lives. What you’ve done already seems to have sealed YOU to HIM not the other way around. Please end this spell and move on to someone who actually loves you for you and not for some power you have over them.

Love and Lightning,

Grimm

This is his reply to me:

your right, thanks so much sometimes, we need another positive energy to return us back to sanity

much love

have a blessed week

I'm feeling much better about this now.

This is why I left Harry's Occult shop.

I received this email yesterday and was so enraged I almost called this a-hole up and read him the riot act. Instead I just told him NO.

"i hope all is well, with u. i need some help. i need some resources to strengthen my relationship, with my friend: he is on a travel job comes home 1 weekend a month, i need something to make him think only of me. i have found out that he did come home a weekend but did not come see me. This i dont want to ever happen again. to be honest i want him obsessed with me. what can i do. i stop burning the pink & red candles that xxxx use to make for me from harrys. i have a seal with a piece of his clothes buried in my front yard, that seems to keep him coming back, He moved most of his stuff in my house, but i need something stronger & more powerful. What can i do, or can u direct me to someone who will not judge (u no the life style & not cost me a fortune) to assist me in the matter?

any suggestions would be greatly appreciated." 

Can you imagine? This is the kind of idiot I had to make magic spells for and the kind of reason. I left a stain on my soul that took me years to get rid of. 

I'm adding a special extra Spirituality post today.

I actually wrote this up a few years ago for a group I was facilitating on Magical thought.

I do a lot of work with Totemic spirits. I first met Bear when I went to a sun wheel in New York state back in 1984.

My shamanic teacher and two friends came with me to this weekend Native American festival and we were camping during it.

At the beginning of the festival I had realized I forgot my money and only ad a few dollars in my pocket (Thankfully meals and such were provided.). I was feeling a bit foolish but since I didn’t need for food or anything else I decided to buy myself a quartz crystal. I bought a small shard and it hummed lovingly in my hand. I knew this would be a wonderful time.

We started the festival a few minutes later with a circle of us holding hands and chanting around the Medicine wheel. As we started to channel the energy from one to another I went dead inside and got the feeling I was not wanted there.

I panicked and joined the hands of the two people I was holding hands with and ran into the woods crying. I was probably about a quarter mile away from the fest when I stopped and sat down on a log in the woods.

I took the crystal I had just purchased and said to the Great Spirit “If I’m supposed to be here and this is my path show me! I need a sign!”

I went quiet inside all of a sudden and walked back to the “Taj Mahal” (The tent my friend Eric and I were using was something like a 12 man tent. It was huge and the people around us named it the Taj.)

I lay back on my sleeping bag and listened to the sounds around me. Then it got surreal…

I was looking over to where I could see the shadows of people passing by on the side of the tent when I saw her/him there was a huge golden glowing bear image. I could see right through it but it was there none the less. As I sat there unable to believe what was happening I heard Annabelle (My teacher) and Shelly walking past the tent. I said aloud “Annabelle! Could you look in here please?”

She popped her head in and looked directly at where I was looking and said “Joe This is between the two of you. Just remember what I’ve told you about spirits.” And she shut the tent flap and walked away FAST!

Knowing that this was my destiny I got on my knees (the tent was still to low to stand in for my 6’2” frame and crawled over to the bear. He/she opened it’s arms and we melted into one another. From that moment in my life I have always known I was to be a healer and walk the path of BEAR.

And yes this is the true story with no deviations.